Fight or Flight

http://deathisnotdying.com/

This vid made me cry a lot. Got the link from challies:

"Rachel Barkey, whose message titled "Death is Not Dying" became a bit of an internet phenomenon, went home to her Lord on July 2, 2009 at 37 years of age. If you have not yet heard "Death is Not Dying," this is a good time to do so."

and she cries and wails because it hits her too. what a lovely video. but she also has that blessed hope.

"The Lord, the Lord God, merciful and gracious, longsuffering, and abounding in goodness and truth, keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, by no means clearing the guilty.."

For a stiff-necked people who I can relate to. Heard an audio book by Francis Chan called Crazy Love. And he talked about this girl called Brooke who was all for Jesus man. In junior high, she started a Bible study on her campus. She spent her babysitting money on bibles to give away to unsaved friends. She wrote the following essay at only 12yrs of age.



The book continues..

During her freshman year in high school, Brooke was in a car accident while driving to the movies. Her life on earth ended when she was just fourteen, but her impact didn't. Nearly fifteen hundred people attended Brooke's memorial service. People from her public high school read poems she had written about her love for God. Everyone spoke of her example and her joy. I shared the gospel and invited those who wanted to know Jesus to come up and give their lives to Him. There must have been at least two hundred students on their knees at the front of the church praying for salvation.

This story gives me so many feelings. I really wish I had that determination that Brooke had. I mean she was only 12, like seriously. I was so touched and walking up the escalator in the mrt while listening to the audio, I jus sobbed and sniffled. I want to be as determined and I'm a little afraid. Anyway the links below are the book and the audio, totally free.

Google Books - Crazy Love
Christian Audio - Crazy Love: Overwhelmed by a Relentless God

Just finished survivor and man is that game sick. It's so scheming you're just glued to it. Man i'll be freaked out to join sth like that. I know i'd lose haha. And i totally enjoy watching the challenges.

Well i gotta get out of hall, and it's the same process all over again. I'm jus hoping i get an answer soon or find a good, cheap room outside. Which is like almost impossible haha.

I'm glad i got new apps on my phone thanks to yl. Totally digging the esv version over the kjv that i used to have.

I honestly don't know what goes through your head. Maybe I shud look at it as like loyalty. But seriously. It's not exactly a great feeling for me.

Scary news today about the team that's away. Kinda worried. Pray.

There's no verse today coz j wasn't a good girl.

"No matter what kind of darkness you are experiencing, if you’re a believer in Jesus Christ, there’s a reason you need not fear - your Shepherd is with you. "

-blazingcenter

..the piano that is. Well more like I played until my fingers hurt and my laptop battery died. Sorta figured out the song that ber suggested that we might perform. It's kinda odd that my piano playing has improved. (well i think it has) I mean i only officially completed one grade and don't exactly 'practice'. I guess coz I enjoy playing worship songs. Totally digging crashchords that i found on tangle, but it's super difficult


"Who is like You, O LORD, among the gods? Who is like You, glorious in holiness, fearful in praises, doing wonders?"

That verse comes from the song celebrating how the Israelites left Egypt and even crossed the Red Sea. I'm learning new things all over, even if this is probably the 5th time reading the torah. One thing that sticks out is how God tells Moses he will deliver the children of Israel.


And so Moses returns to Egypt, meets Aaron and gathers together all the elders of the children of Israel to tell them what God has said.


So Moses goes to the Pharaoh with the famous "Let My people go" and Pharaoh, who probably think Moses is absolutely crazy, ends up calling the children of Israel 'idle' and gives them so much more work to do. For the less informed, the Israelites were slaves under the Egyptians. Now they had to find straw to make the bricks and fulfill a probably impossible quota. I bet they were v. skinny. OK so the point is that..God visits Moses, says he wants to deliver them, things get even worse. It's so bad that the Israelite officers try to negotiate with Pharaoh but to no avail. And so to Moses and Aaron they say:


Naturally Moses asks "why?... Why?..."

This reminded me of the When God's People Pray series and the importance of persevering in prayer. How Cymbala prayed for his daughter and things just got worse and worse. Until finally the prodigal daughter came back to God and to her home. So back to Moses...ultimately the Israelites were delivered and boy was it interesting. I mean to see huge swarms of locusts, fiery hail and hear the chorus of the croaking frogs and see boils all over the Egyptians...how fascinating is that. You'd think that would be enough for the Israelites to worship and follow God wholeheartedly, seeing all His works of power. Nope. And I guess I can relate. We are such forgetful people.

But the point is, things don't always go your way, even though you pray. In fact things might even seem to get worse. But you gotta persevere. So .. ahem, in my deja-vu accomodation situation, I learn to say "may Your will be done, and may I be able to put on a smile through it all." :)