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November 23 Les couleurs de la vie Ils voient la vie en rose (to be happy) Elle voit rouge (to be angry) Il a des idées noires (sad, depressed) November 20 Big Enough Listening to oldies (: Chris Rice is always known for his beautiful lyrics. None of us knows and that makes it a mystery If life is a comedy, then why all the tragedy Three-and-a-half pounds of brain try to figure out What this world is all about And is there an eternity, is there an eternity? God if You're there I wish You'd show me And God if You care then I need You to know me I hope You don't mind me askin' the questions But I figure You're big enough I figure You're big enough Lying on pillows we're haunted and half-awake Does anyone hear us pray, If I die before I wake Then the morning comes and the mirror's the other place Where we wrestle face to face with the image of Deity The image of Deity . When I imagine the size of the universe And I wonder what's out past the edges Then I discover inside me a space as big And believe that I'm meant to be Filled up with more than just questions . So, God if You're there I wish You'd show me And God if You care then I need You to know me I hope You don't mind me askin' the questions But I figure You're big enough I figure You're big enough ‘Cause I am not big enough -parce que- November 19 cold It's been raining like practically the whole day. And it's really cold here at the benches. And mosquitos bit me...I wonder if it has to do with the contruction that's like also non-stop. I seem to spend a whole lot more time on facebook now that exams are coming up. I suddenly have this time where I ought to be studying but am compelled to take a break say every 10mins to check out facebook. Or else it's plants vs zombies. Tsk terrible. And I managed to get two people hooked on the game this week, muahhahahaha. Studied over at clm's house which is much more cooler coz at least there's a proper table with good lighting. Not sth I have at home. And yeah he started playing plants v zombies. Then the chr DG went over to her house (supposedly for a sleep-over) and during our 'break', amnd got hooked too!!! woot! Ok but the good news is that none of them have the game so they won't be able to play even though they're addicted to it. Only when they get their hands on my comp. So the sleepover became effectively me only, coz ylng's sis gave birth! CONGRATS! And dnll's stuff was at home and amnd din wanna stay. But i learned a really cool drum beat to the song 'Open the eyes of my heart'. It's ultra cool and ultra hard. I wanna play more drums! Anyway I've been having a recurring theme in my memory verses for the day. "For though He was crucified in weakness, yet He lives by the power of God." "For we also are weak in Him, but we shall live with Him by the power of God toward you." "I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me." "And the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me." "Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh." Those are all from my phone and i didn't put down references. But shud be from the same book. If you're feeling ambitious you can search for it in the bible. Sometimes I feel like I'm a different person. I remember the old me who was so fired up for Jesus. That day during prayer meeting when 'One Pure and Holy Passion' was sung, and it stung coz that was the prayer of my life .. but look at me now. I don't know whether recent events have contributed to this jaded-ness but the whole thing is sadder when you look around to see who you can turn to. And I miss those times when I was just so comfortable talking to God. Now it's like ... I know God is there, He'll never leave nor forsake me. But like despite His presence I'm just there in an ice block of my own. Actually I've come up with my own hypothesis. But I'll leave that for another time. But it is good to be alone. studied with cw for most part of the day and then i've just been here trying to focus on my french. But maybe it's the things of the world that has truly pulled me away. I miss spending time with God. I realise that i've just been so busy. And am always with someone or a group of people. And if i'm not, this magnetic laptop pulls me in to be doing sometimes useful stuff, but a lot of the time useless stuff (like watering my zen garden). And my energy and time is taken away such that I plop into bed without talking to my dear dear Father. Well...here's to a new day coming soon (: -Just to be with You- November 17 feteOopsies! Wayyyy overdue post..
I've been meaning to blog since THIS IS IT! Which we went to watch last Tues after the docu ppl had completed and presented their projects. ly and i were the narrative ppl who were to free la, lol. So we went together with honey, jea, ellie and sti. And what a show, if only MJ had made it for the tour. It would have been spectacular. I totally thought the ideas and sets were cool. And the 'why' song is stuck in my head which i haven't heard of before, but apparently is old. Totally think the echoes are cool.
Anyway next day was...Spectrum End of Sem Party where I took more photos. Congrats to those who won awards and a humongous thanks to each and every one of you who made it happen :) Thursdayy was the last deadline for my assignments so got the 427 screenings out. And we chipped in to celebrate Campbell's belated bday. Couldn't get the 'cheekuay' thing.
It's been birthdays nonstop with Sera turning 10 on Sat, Jea 21 on Sun and Clm 23. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! And I seem to be the one taking all the birthday photos ever since I got my cam hahaha. But facebook seems to have issues uploading.
Anyway I have some quotes I decided to take down. Plin said sth really smart and funny i think on fri, and I named it the quote of the day. Unfortunately I can't remember it coz I didn't take it down. But I was compelled to take others down and here they are:
"Hindsight is brilliant"
- Mr. Campbell 12 Nov - when reviewing our final assignments in class
"You gotta cover your legs sometime" - Mr. Seah 13 Nov - on the assistant director. how she dressed at the shoot to pulau ubin.
"I don't hate him. I loved him until I figured out it hurts a lot less to just not care." - Dr. Chase from 'House'
And here's one I've been storing in my phone
"Now most respectable theologians nowadays agree that life at least did evolve by slow, gradual incremental degrees. But they prefer to smuggle the creator in as well somewhat superfluously one might have thought. If natural selection and evolution is God's way of designing life, why would He choose the one way which makes it look as though He doesn't exist. Which makes His own role completely superfluous."
- Richard Dawkins in an interview or debate of some sort. Gotta admit he has a point there.
Aside from that, there's still the going ons of the goings. I haven't been doing a lot of things that I usually do and i wonder if that's the reason why. There is some sort of degrading spiritually. Or it could be my lack of discipline. But then again you gotta admit, it's not as if you can not be affected by this. No matter how hard you try.
-tell me why? why?- November 08 not a pretty sight and there's a whole thing coming along that is difficult to understand. difficult to argue against. difficult to tackle. chr - you're supposed to be praying for me to be strong remember? you say you know so well but yet you can't figure this out? you say many years, yet you don't understand the workings and the message behind the message? you say yes did, yet is a one time attempt really counted? you say kept in, yet wasn't it blasted? And so it was four hours long. Trying very hard to catch up with biz law readings. Wayy behind and reached home late... ayn treated me to coffee and cheesecake and potato puff. distractions are extremely good in this period. anyway please don't keep harping on that particular thing which isn't the main issue. But to make this post even more confusing i think the anti-type is totally and extremely weird. received an incredibly rude txt. On the bright side, caramel cheered me up with the fb post (: coz she likes pretty much everything ho ho ho. Then again during the listing, i couldn't help but think of the a names and my heart was terribly saddened. wisdom, discernment, truth, strength, power, self-control, love, patience. If you're a Christian, please pray for these, for me and those having to go through this. Anyway had a guest speaker and the message today was good. Loving God. Pursuing Him with all my heart. For WHOM HAVE I IN HEAVEN BUT YOU? AND THERE IS NOTHING ON EARTH THAT I DESIRE BESIDES YOU. Ps73:25 (interestingly that's p's fave psalm) -now that the damage is done, are you still having fun?- |
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